Like so many of you who are going through the processes of a spiritual awakening it is something that sparks within your life and once it's starts you are on a rollercoaster of ups and downs.
A spiritual awakening occurs when something so significant happens in your life that it creates a impact on your soul. It is like you have just woken up from being you to a new world which is scary and disorientating.It is like your soul has just been reborn with the only concept of having to stand still and start again on your life's journey.
Where do you even start to begin you don't understand what is happening to you,you look around and everyone you share your life with does not understand that you are now different. It feels isolating and lonely as you dont have the answers to where you are meant to be walking.It feels like you are standing at a crossroads looking for signs but all they appear to say at this point is the road ahead is to be found.Which path do you walk if you don't know where it will lead.The only path you can walk is forward even though you don't know what it entails.you can't go backwards as that feels more fearful.Going to one side or the other just wouldn't enter your mind as the path is much clearer than you think the only way to go is forward into the unknown.
Like so many of you my life was taken to the deepest depths of darkness everything I loved was being taken from me and the pain was too much to bear.
I was lost,alone and confused.why can so much happen in such a short space of time.
Then one night as I cried like never before I prayed to god to help me and my family.I called out to the Angels who had always been by my side but I never thought to call upon them before even though the signs they were in my life were shown to me in 2008 when my journey was to begin but I ignored the signs.They were already preparing me for what was to lie ahead and to let me know they would be by my side.
Since that night my life and my families lives have changed and even though the journey I am on still gets hard at times and I return back to the darkness for short periods of times I now understand that it is there to help me find abit more light within me.Each time I return to the darkness I am getting to feel more reassured that the light within me will steer me through and a new discovery will be found.
My Angels once I accepted their help have decided to communicate with me and to help guide my life by showing me numbers of significance.This is called numerology.The numbers change as I change a little more and the numbers are helping me prepare and understand when I have entered another period of transition.They also send me feathers,orbs,coins and anything else they know I will understand.
I have contemplated using what my passion is and that is writing.To share my creativity with others but I have always held myself back through fear.Something as arose in me and has become stronger and I have decided that to experience life in the darkness takes incredible strength and courage and to find that little spark of light within us that has always been there takes enormous courage.so I thought I do have courage and strength this is not so scary. My life is only going to be what I can create and I am the only one who can change things.
I have thought about this throughout my journey and when I was misdiagnosed with cancer the first thought that came into my mind was I will never write my book,I will never be who I want to be and now I am not going to be given that chance in this lifetime to continue finding the true me,the light within.
It as been six months since that thought entered my mind and up to now it was just a thought that was going nowhere really.I had already been given the answer of what my life could have been and I still chose to keep fear within me and blocking the path ahead.
By starting to write these blogs I have chosen to do what I have learnt whilst on this journey to just go for it.I have this life in me now and nothing will stop me creating a life which will bring me to my true self and who I am.
The only thing that's stops us being us is ourselves and if we can overcome the fear of the unknown and just follow the love within us we will all be who we were born to be.
It has taken every part of who I have kept hidden and I have been finding little bits of the true me whilst on this journey but I am not willing to hold myself back any longer.I deserve as we all do to receive the precious gift of love and to become who we are.
Love ,light and healing energies to you all
Tm
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