God as always been with me

When I was a child I always knew I was being watched over. I would sense that I was never alone and I could always feel an energy surrounding me.
As a child and I was a sweet child, I was always taking care of others and sharing this deep feeling of love I carried within my heart always wanting to uplift the lives of others.
I always sensed that somehow I felt different to others especially my siblings.
I always wondered if I could the  feel the presence that always surrounded me, were they receiving it too.
Within our household, Religion was never discussed. We only visited church at Easter time or Christmas but I longed to go to church regularly to be with God.
I found out that our church held Sunday school and asked my mother if we could go every week.
We went to Sunday school for a few weeks but then it just stopped as my family had other commitments on this day.
I remember feeling really sad and apologised to God for not attending anymore and explained  to him.
I am only a child,I know I have let you down but I am too small to walk to church on my own but I will still be with you.
I now understood at the age of seven that the presence I had always felt was God, his son Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit.
I found a way to be with God and that was through prayer.
So each morning has I woke,I would kneel down by my bed and lift my hands to pray.
This was also the last thing I did before I slept each night.
My siblings would laugh at me and wonder what I was doing as three of us shared the same bedroom.
I would tell them I am praying to God to watch over us all.
As they were too young to understand, I would just tell them you are being looked after tonight as you sleep.
Their response was but mummy and daddy does that.
You could see the confusion on their little faces so I stopped explaining,but I knew they were being watched over by God and this gave me reassurance before I slept.
I remember that year my Aunty brought me my first children's bible.As I unwrapped this present before me  I could already sense this gift was special.
I remember looking at it  with eyes so wide and with a huge sense of love in my heart, my little eyes welling up.
I was filled with so much emotion,but I could not cry because she may have thought it was a gift I didn't want.
So all I could do was hold this gift from God close to my heart and spin around in circles letting out little bursts  of the emotion I felt inside.
I ran up the stairs and jumping on my bed settled down to read the words before me.
My gift from God was placed under my pillow and that's where it remained for years to come.
I carried out the same routine every night,say my prayers,read a passage from my bible then place it back under my pillow but keep one hand on top of it so I could touch the hand of God as I slept.
My life as a child always felt magical,I could feel I was blessed and loved. But looking back now how did I know what I was feeling as I had never seen who was behind the feelings I felt.There was nothing there.
All I know is the love I felt within my heart was trusting,had never let me down and had been with me all my life.
But I believed and it was this faith and trust that I felt within and the love I wanted to give back to say thank you for never leaving me and that was my God who would be by my side and this brought comfort to my life. Even now as an adult I know God walks beside me and he places his love,light and healing energies flowing through my body,mind and soul.

Love,light and healing energies to you all
Tm